I don’t know

They didn’t have any position for me at the job that I applied. So that’s not happening anymore. I would do anything for a job. It feels like I’m not meant to have a job. It’s not only about just having a job but also doing something with my life. If I can’t even get job, how am i supposed to do anything else, like learn to drive. I get anxious and scared with new things. It’s just that I might mess up or something, I don’t want to get a job then get fired. I also want a job so I can fund my projects and buy the things I want like a few hot toys that I preorder and my fursuit. I would like those things. I just want to be able to buy the things I want with my own earned money. I don’t know how I really was as a kid anymore. When I was in elementary, I got in trouble for something, I tightly started pulling my jacket around my neck. I don’t know what that was about but I guess I did wanted to die. I wish i could go back into being a kid. I need to talk to someone