What’s wrong with me?

Sooo, this may get confusing throughout but hear me out. I am 25 years old. I come from a very conservative family. Like radical. As a grown woman I am a libertarian. Thats not even the base of it all. My issue I have right now is feeling stuck. By stuck I mean scrolling, movies, video games.. I know all the things I WANT to do. I love to crochet, garden, and cook. I will scroll through videos about these things but never bring them to fruition and it sucks. I know I have anxiety and ADHD but I work so hard and plan so hard for these things and when the day comes to do it i get stuck not?? Idk what to do anymore and how to get out of this. I don’t want to end up like my Mimi who consumed herself in bad but also not like my mom who’s MAGA AF and doesn’t see reality for what it is. IDEK my real dad so don’t ask. My stepdad adopted me. Idk ask questions if you need to, I’m just screaming for help over here.