28 [M4F] uk. thinking my bwc was made to breed

This is probably just the horny ramblings of my mind but I cant help wanting to chat about it. My white ex hated my breeding kink, called it disgusting. This had two effects. One it made me try and repress the thoughts which I am pretty sure only made them more intense. And two, it got me thinking amd imagining. The main thought was thst maybe i am wasting my bwc not breeding and should be finding a none white babe to breed instead. I dont know why it is so appealing to me, maybe it is the contrast in skin tones or something else. I am trying to figure out why I am a little obsessed and thinking my bwc was made to breed.