Meet my ex again

Yesterday i met my ex, actually i was out with my friends and we went to a specific cafe where me and my ex used to go even servers know us there. And i was with 5 more people 3 girls and 2 guys we were just chilling and they were trying to cheer me up as i am still not over her i still love her we brokeup due to her toxicity and all in all it was a very abusive relationship. She was pretty mad at me as i reconnected with my old friends, she hated all these people and i removed them from my life for 2 years and she got pretty mad and started abusing me there and all in all it was pretty messed up idk how to explain.

And her cherry on cake was always body shaming me whenever anything is not going according to her. IDK what to do i wasn't able to sleep whole night my mind was replaying everything our 32 months which we spent together. I don't know why did i even said yes to her. She was the one who wanted me first and treated me like i am a nobody