6 months post break up. Everyone was right it's not the end of the world.

My ex dumped me 20days after he proposed to me. We talked about marriage, kids, family, everything... Then one day out of nowhere he sent a text saying he wants to break up, doesn't see a future with me.

It was a shock to me. I was so confused the first few weeks and begged him to atleast meet and talk. He didn't want to meet. We had one phone call where he brought up things from years ago that he had a problem with. He never brought them up before.

After he proposed, we wanted to live in the same place. I left my job to move to the same city as him. I was dealing with unemployment and a heartbreak when he left me. It felt like end of the world.

I was devastated. I couldn't eat or sleep. I lost weight, lost hair, and would get sick often. We went no contact immediately after the break up. Everyday I'd check my phone obsessively for his texts. Nothing.

It's been six months since my break up and five months of no contact. I have accepted that he is not coming back. I'm no longer who I used to be. I never thought I'd even reach a place where I was ok with the possibility of him not coming back. But here we are. It does get better.