I went down the rabbit hole

I don't know how I got myself addicted to this stuff but it's crazy. I have missed work cuz I'm watching Sissy hypnosis videos all the time. I have bought myself dildos leggings panties bras lingerie and tried to purge but kept going back. I am a normal straight guy but think of cock all the time now and also thinking that I want to be more femme. I am trying to find some hypnotists that could reverse this so far no luck. What is the best way to try and stop this? I even stopped playing video games now as I lost interest.