Please shake me

This is going to be a weird story, but I am desperate. I need to eat healthier. I’m not obese, my BMI is 24.8, so not even overweight I think. The reasons for eating healthier are mostly medical, I am at risk of diabetes, got Hashimoto’s and have high blood pressure while being a 34yo woman, so this is bad.

Now, my lifestyle is not bad: I do some sports and yoga (but not enough - as my doctor said), walk my dog, eat regularly and sleep 7-8hrs. But damn I love junk food. I just love evening snacks and cinnamon buns and butter cookies. It would be ok if I ate it once in a while, nothing wrong with that, but I eat it every day and my husband is my partner in crime.

I tried psycho-dietician, therapy, I tried healthy delivery food, mindfulness, nothing can really change this stupid habit I have or emotional gain I get. Yeah, it’s very emotional. I am disciplined and balanced in so many areas of my life but this one is literally impossible, I just eat and eat.

I’m moving to a different house soon and starting new chapter with my family and thought it would be good to really dig into what is wrong with me that I can’t stop. I think me and my husband could both benefit from that but we’re living in this endless hell of paprica pringels and cheesecakes.

I was wondering if you could kick me in the face and tell your story, or tell me what motivated you or maybe you have some tips or tricks for crybabies like me. Even when I dig 10000 meters down into my psyche and talk through it with a therapist, I can’t change it. Maybe some of you have been there too. Thanks a lot and keep going!