Barbers

I think this is more of a rant than anything else however, I am fkn sick of my hair now. I used to go to this like somewhat really masculine barbers, usually sat in there with a group of teenage boys on one side, then full blown men the other side and it would make me so uncomfortable (idk why maybe I'm just a pussy but I do also get really bad impostor syndrome even though it's just hair and I have the right to be there to get it cut lmao) anyway he used to do such a good job, always left feeling really good about myself however, between the awkward waiting area, the stupidly high price (£25 and this was in 2021/2022) and just the awkward small talk or silence whilst getting it cut, I opted for a change, also I would usually be waiting well over an hour and I just cba with that. Anyways, I found a barber who is a gay man, really easy to chat to, we put the world to rights during appointments and talk about everything from food, films, daily occurrences and even my transition & it's also appointment based so no waiting about, in and out in 20 mins and usually no one else there except maybe someone who showed up a bit early for the appointment after me. Also I only pay £19 for it now (2026). However, I sometimes feel like my hair is rushed and he just does a get the job done kind of haircut and I'm not the person to be like yo I do not like this, I'll be like thanks man see you in 2 weeks 💀. I also feel like he is thinning my hair out so much and it's driving me fkn insane I feel like I'm balding when really I think he is just stealing my hair from me & I know this is my fault and I should just be like excuse me no thanks but because I've been going so long now, I feel like we're friends hahaha I don't want to be annoying, in my very early transition I was ok with any hair cut like just make me look manly now I'll go sometimes after a few extra weeks trying to grow my hair out for thickness and a better fringe and I'll be like hey, I want this today and show a pic of my hair from my old barber and he's just like I dont thknk that will suit you now, LIKE WHAT, I AM SEXY THERE but yeah I do say what I want or show a reference but he will just destroy my hair again and I'll just be like thanks 🥹

I don't know what to do, I'm in 2 minds, he's very local to me and I often see him out and about and will let on to him ect and I know about the whole cheating on barbers gag and whatever so i don't know what to do, do I just be like before you shear me please do this or do I just bite the bullet and break up with him and go somewhere else