Sometimes I just feel numb

I'm new to Krishna Consciousness and I love Lord Krishna and love everything related to him. From listening to bhajans and kirtans, to my YT and Instagram which are all about Him, I pretty much keep him in my mind. I read Bhagavad Gita and take classes everyday. But sometimes, I just feel numb and when I do, I can't feel the love and devotion for Lord Krishna too. I come from a very toxic family dynamic and it contributes to my emotional numbness sometimes. Can you tell me how to keep my love and devotion towards Him completely intact all the time?

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