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I feel so guilty for letting my mom think that I’m getting better. I’m not. at all. she thinks I’m three months clean when I’ve been relapsing almost every day for weeks. she genuinely has no idea what’s coming. I’m glad I won’t have to see her reaction to finding me. ugh the thought makes me sick to my stomach. I don’t know what I could possibly put in my note to make her feel better. I hope she knows it’s not her fault