Drank after a year sober

Yesterday I had a few drinks. Reminds me of why I'm addicted to this drug. After the last year, six different medications, and just feeling anxious and depressed the whole time, I finally felt normal. Slept well, and woke up feeling like my old self.

I don't know, I really shouldn't be fucking around anymore. I fucked around last January and went full bore until I couldn't drink for a few weeks. Especially after a bout of liver failure, which is why I gave it up in the first place.

But, you know the, "You'll never wake up the next morning saying I wish I drank last night." That's not true at all, I had a pretty good time and woke up feeling normal for once instead of disappointed in being alive for another day.

(I'm having one of those times where I'd just delete my post after writing, it, but I'm hitting post instead)