a small part of me still sees myself as male

that shy, horribly unwell, meek, underweight boy i was when i was 13. i only figured out i was trans at 14 and took a long time to come to terms with it.

if things were different, i could have been a straight cis twink instead. i probably still would have gone on hrt and gotten srs, but maybe i would have been completely fine with the social stuff?