I get really snappy at my mom

I get so snappy at my mom. like loads. she jus triggers me like talks on stuff too much like everything.

i know it’s 100% my issue, i should be able to be patient. I try to be. for example if I help in the kitchen she’s like do xyz this way why are you doing that like that omg and I can bite my lip for a while and then im like ok just stop it’s not that deep stop picking at things.

it makes me really really impatient with her. but I get annoyed too, like earlier I was trying to sell something for her on eBay and had another offer and she was like what happened x amount and I just cba bothered to explain it all, I’m like do accept this price?! i just couldn’t be bothered to explain it all.

also when my kids and in-laws call and speak with them sometimes I get annoyed when we’re telling a story and she asked too many qs or goes on about something of her own and I get this like anxiety that I feel like the other person is getting bored by her and what she’s talking about. then I feel bad in my head I’m like maybe she’s lonely and wants to talk to someone that’s why she talks lots.

im such a horrible person, why am I so impatient, how can I stop this and not be like this. I really try and make the decision I’m going to stop and be patient and then I just keep getting annoyed by her. I’m quite an impatient person anyway, but why does my mum trigger me so much?! please tell me how not to be such a bad person. I really want to try and be better.