Where do I go now...

My world is falling apart right in front of me and I can't do anything.

I just lost my job... I was already living on debt. I was teaching kids. And because of parents I lost my job. I have no savings.

I was doing it on b2b and now my whole business is gonna collapse.

My husband doesn't know yet but we had a rough time lately because of his problems with and at work... I don't want to scare him since he is in bad shape mentally.

I'm in bad shape too... i think I may have depression but I don't want to diagnose myself. I can't afford a doctor and even if I wouldn't be able to afford any meds or anything. I have to keep up. I have to be strong... but I just can't... I need a hug and just a little push... little help... I can't keep going like this.

I'm sorry I'm ranting. I just don't have anyone well enough to just cry to. If someone... something would help me get up this time i know i would be able to go on  and do it all. Be well. But there's noone. One time I just need this. And there's noone.

I know I will get up again and fight again and I will be ok. I just don't have enough strength. Or guidance.

Please just help me fight. This one time. Just once.

I'm sorry.