Mom visited, announced shes got breast cancer, intends to die?

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Hi! Im reaching out, or screaming into the void perhaps, either is okay.

My 56yo mom came to visit me across the country, announced she quit her job, has some breast cancer with lymph node involvement, had a mammo and a biopsy idk what else if any and doesnt want any further scans like a pet, no finalized diagnosis or info on it and no treatment. Plans to run up credit cards on vacations and die. right now she says she feels great, best she has in a while.

Im like ???woman??? I want to respect her choices (no I dont but ya know), but also feel like shes not being realistic about a likely gruesome painful death. I think shes just tired of the struggle bus of life and is looking for the exit.

She was also the carer for 5 relatives who we lost to cancer when i was a kid 1999-2008 so shes like why bother treatment never works ill just do treatment and die anyway.

At her job she just quit she had kaiser for insurance, but i guess thats gone with the quitting. my husband is military (and gone for 2 months) so we have tricare, but secondary dependency doesnt work for that i think. we are also about to go to a new duty station on recruiter orders so we dont even know where were going yet.

i have an older sister, 35, who lives abt 2 hours from where my mom lives. but my mom does not want to tell her. my sister is a very high control person, very formal, scheduled and kinda mean and condesending. all factors probably due to her mid level autism, but just painting a picture as to why shes reluctant to tell her. im not close with my sister we havent spoken in a few years. so im not about to be the one to meddle in their relationship either.

anyway

its been a few days since then, and were both just acting normal doing stuff with the kids and whatnot and i havent brought it up again.

i feel frozen in so many ways. without her kaiser insurance, with me moving soon so i cant even say get state insurance medicaid or whatever where i live, with her denial of wanting any more information at all and to just let nature take its course???

im just ???? WHAT DO I DO HERE PEOPLE.