Started having really bad uti symptoms about 4/5 months ago. I posted another post to this subreddit basically explaining what was going on…fast forward to late January I started taking Cefalexin for what I believed was a Strep B UTI. I felt immediate relief within the first two days, but symptoms began creeping back. I stupidly stopped taking the antibiotics after 5 days, while I was supposed to finish it for 7. I also saw a new reputable urogynocologist for the first time, this past Tuesday. I had stopped taking the antibiotics two days prior to this point, last Saturday or so. Anyway, my uro decides to proceed with a cystoscopy to see what’s going on. I was told it would be uncomfortable, but not unbrearable.

Anyway, it was the most excruciatingly painful procedure I have ever done. I almost passed out and sat on the toilet trying to urinate for almost an hour after. Ironically, my bladder looked great. No signs of inflammation. Fast forward to now.

I cannot pee without gushing clots of blood and immediate cramping following voiding that takes my breath away. Extreme urgency, worse than before. Basically every symptom I had before has gotten worse by 10x. I’m honestly at my wits end and I don’t know what to do. Went to ER twice, bacteria could not be seen in urine and despite this I was given a prescription for Macrobid. I’ve been taking that. Can’t tell if it’s helped; I’m still pissing blood and the clots are getting worse. Kidney infections have been ruled out/ no fever, but this pain is unbearable. I have  A high pain tolerance but I genuinely want to die. I reached out to my urogynocologist and she basically said to wait and see on the macrobid and o most likely have A UTI. If im not feeling better, she said she’d try a different antibiotic. 

I’m so angry. I wish I hadn’t done this to myself. I’m in agony and losing my mind, ending up worse than before. The pain isn’t getting better. 

I cannot afford pelvic floor therapy, either, which I heard is helpful. There are none near me that take insurance. 

I am not A person who allows dark thoughts to hover over them but this is genuinely the lowest I’ve ever been in my life. I cannot take much more. I am at a loss and feel like this is going to be my life now. Looking for reassurance and advice. I can’t stop crying. 

I don’t know what to do anymore