Trying this year to be overall more positive and not dwell on the the negative anymore

I'll be blunt. Being a fat guy on top of having a small dick i thought in my mind i would never be really happy. Even though ive had relationships my self esteem took a nose dive. for all of my adult life i've had to deal with the ups and down from gaining weight.(and the bigger guys know) gaining weight even make your penis look smaller from hiding behind layers of fat/skin. To loosing weight and in your mind your penis looks bigger so it gives you a huge boost in confidence and self esteem.

Its like a damn cycle (gaining weight again...) but this time i'm an not going to let it bother me. I know what i have and i know that i am more then just my size. I swore this year to be more confident and not let my size effect my life anymore. Though i am single now and have been for years i'm hoping that when i get into a relationship again that she will love me for me .