How to quit and still be happy? 2 years unemployed, broke and living with Mom. 30yo.

I quit for 5 years which I wanted to do. I worked and made a lot of money, but was miserable the whole time. I just thought that all the movies, food, sex, games, morning coffee and everything I liked to do sucked compared to what it was like with weed. Same in the 1st year as it was in the 5th.

It was cause I was in a country where it was very illegal. I moved back home and am high all day everyday for 2 years. I'm in an awful spot where I need to make a change, but instead, all I do is just hit my vape.

I dont WANT to quit cause I don't want to go back to the miserable life I had for 5 years which was just ultimately....boring and depressing. (I had everything I ever wanted at this time too, money/nice house/nice relationships).

Living with my Mom unemployed in a remote town is awful. I don't want to live anymore. But I don't have the strength to make the change cause I fear I will be even more sad and harm myself as a result of withdrawal. Getting a job in this town is not an option. It's tiny and only has restaurant work. I can't introduce myself as the 30 year old guy who lives with his Mom and walks 30mins to work everyday because he's too high to get a drivers license. I need to move to a city but can't stop hitting my vape instead of looking for a job, or trying to make my own money.

This situation is bad....but at least I have weed. <--- How to change this?