Any atheist here that cling onto a little hope that death is not the end

20f recently clocked out of religion ( Sunni Islam) and have also lost someone close to me recently and whilst atheism is the most logical answer to life and everything right now to me, there’s a piece of my heart that hopes atheism is not true and there are a lot of things we don’t know about life and death. Can anyone give me any insights into their thoughts and beliefs. I’m just feeling so down and in my feelings today - the thought of never ever seeing my loved ones again has been overwhelming and stressful.