Crashed the car

when you think life is horrible already, it just gets worse. I crashed the car my dad was letting me use and this event has split my life into before the accident happened and the after. I can’t look at the things I’ve had in my past because it reminds me of the accident and before it happened. This happened just yesterday, but I can’t live with myself anymore. I feel like throwing up and I can’t focus on anything. My dad has been yelling at me (and it’s been quite some time since he’s been this angry at my), and it’s warranted, but the guilt is consuming me alive. I can’t call my mom because that makes me want to throw up. Now that I don’t have a means of transportation, I’ll probably just stay at home for a while. I can’t get myself to do anything because I just keep repeating the accident over in my head and all the people I’ve inconvenienced and the guilt and embarrassment from all this. I put my friends in danger aswell (they were in the car) and I feel like they will never want to hang out with me outside of school again. Now, I have to take the school bus again, and Im not ready for it. It might sound spoiled, but going on the school bus again, knowing that I used to drive a car and that im a senior in high school and everyone else is either a freshmen or sophomore on the bus makes me feel sick. Im not doing good in life at all, im failing school, and I feel like my life is crumbling into pieces. My chest has been hurting and I feel like I’m not in my own body. I know it’s selfish of me to mostly think in this situation about how I feel, but I genuinely cant do anything but think of this horrible situation.