Am I absolutely insane to kinda wish that I wasn’t white?

Hear me out, I know the first conclusion you may jump to is “does this person not realize how insanely privileged they are in every aspect of life?” I do, and I recognize how POC and other cultures have been prosecuted, murdered, shamed, and colonized throughout history, and that’s why I’m thinking this.

It’s not so much that I wish I wasn’t white, it’s that whiteness is a toxicity in the world, and I am benefiting off of it, and others are hurt by that. I have no culture, no beautiful spiritual history, no community. The only “culture” that white people have is being the primary oppressors throughout history. Greedy, selfish, and egotistical. White people credit their foods, fashion, science, and everything else to ourselves, when in reality, we stole it from everyone else.

I envy people who have such rich culture to share with friends and family, and the community that stems from that. The music, traditions, dances, fashion, food, spirituality, everything. Again, I’m not discrediting how insanely hard every life experience is from day 1 for people from different cultures, and how tumultuous the history is. I hope this makes sense to someone lol, I promise I’m not trying to be malicious or ignorant.