Rant

I'm a 20 year old south asian incel. I can't get girls because of my race, it would be creepy for me to approach them and they wouldn't want me anyways. That's why I can't do anything. I'm not "bad" and "man" like the western white male. Girls want them and not me. Girls love them and hate me. I'm stuck with having the drive to think about girls and desire girls every minute every day, and I can't get rid of this drive no matter how much I try, plus the hurt that comes with it too. I want to have sex with a girl badly right now, and I can't stand that they are having sex and doing evil and naughty things while I will get nothing. I feel like such a loser and utter crap. So I want to put it out permanently. It's better to be dead than an incel who has to live through this shit everyday. I planned my method and I hope I succeed. I'm ready for whatever comes after and will question whoever's up there if there is one.