Genuine vent: I'm losing my mind and the reason is stupid.

I feel extremely spoiled and childish saying this but I'm literally going insane by boredom. My whole life I had a PC, since childhood I was in front of the computer now it has been 3 years I dont have one and I'm literally going insane, I can't explain what I am hallucinating properly it is like a deep feeling not visual is purely sensorial, like a feeling that comes from your heart a deep buried certainty of everything is rotting and nothing is capable of being save. I feel like dying but not really dying, I'm sick but Im not. I have like a lot of things I like to do, like reading books, drawing and everything but I can't I can't I need a PC. I miss so much playing games, I try to get jobs but they don't hire me, I have been trying for years but no one wants to hire me even MC Donald's or other "easy jobs to get".

I just wanted to talk about this in a place I wouldn't feel stupid.