I'm 27 and after living independently, I am back living with my family again. (my landlord wanted to sell my place). This is not an ideal situation to be in and I want out ASAP. I'm working with a pretty turbulent inner life and I'm unsure how to practically ground myself as an adult so that I don't find myself in this situation again

The problems:

\- I'm a ruminator, I feel thwarted in my life

\- I feel stagnant in my artistic work. I haven't written anything at all in months and I'm afraid that my heart is hardened against ever making art or seeing the point of it again. I'm deeply cynical about the world and what my own creativity even means in it. I suspect that leaning into leadership/self expression (NN Leo 11h) among groups/communities will help improve my conditions but...

\- ...I can't let go of grudges easily and I have my guard up with most people, even my family. People have treated me terribly and I can't help but notice how people treat others terribly, which makes me not want to connect with anyone, because I anticipate that badness in them and write them off

\- I feel really led by my emotions. For example, I find it difficult to continue being civil with someone who's expressed hostility to me. If I'm angry with that person it's extremely hard for me to drop that anger because it feels like I'm abandoning myself, abandoning my need to be protected/vindicated for the sake of "being the bigger person" 

\- I am kind of a flop and unsure how not to be. I don't know where next to go. I'm learning to drive and looking for jobs that pay better than my current one, no luck so far. I'm currently in overdraft, I do have a spending problem I admit but the spending helps me cope with the fact that I'm in such a bad spot. Saving money or being long-term in my thinking doesn't help deal with the misery the same way weed or anonymous sex does

  
Based on my chart what am I missing in terms of concretely improving my life? I sought out an astrologer last month who told me my 12 and 2nd houses are in mutual reception. Is that positive for my values/character? I appreciate any help thank you so so much

What are realistic steps I can take towards improving my living situation and financial independence? [astro-seek]