What makes life worth living for you? What gives you hope?

Please share, if you can. I am hanging on by my fingernails. There are two things keeping me alive right now:

1. My beloved dogs

2. My partner, who has already lost a former fiancee to suicide, and whom I can't bear to put through that again

But these things are starting to become less and less effective at keeping me alive. Family of origin doesn't give a shit. I tell friends how I feel, and no one seems to care. Nobody checks on me, nobody messages me, nobody wants to spend time with me - not unless I can do something for them. I just want to withdraw all my money and drive to the coast, live luxuriously for as long as I can, and end it all once I run out of funds. Nothing brings me joy for more than a few hours. The world is absolute shit. I just don't want to be here anymore. I am in individual and group therapy, and I have been trying different medications for nearly 20 years. I have no hope that anything will ever change.

Please, tell me the things that keep you alive, big or small. Tell me about your sunsets, your pets, the bugs and birds and bunnies that greet you when you wake up. Tell me about your hopes and dreams, your goals for the future.