Help me

My very last important question. I've become so obsessed with porn and gooning.

After every few hours, it becomes difficult not to climax, but I do my best.

I was wondering if I can really get to a state where I really just can't think anymore, feel so good, everything tingles in my body. That I feel completely different than when I'm not masturbate. You understand what I mean? I really want to be completely detached from reality and just focus on porn and my holes when I free up my time for it. I don't want to be able to think and experience all the other fantastic side effects of getting in that mental state that I've read about. But how? I often feel good, but I don't notice much difference compared to when I just watch porn for half an hour and orgasm. Ofcourse doing everything safe but like I want a world to open for me. Feel completely different, maximum bliss, getting high because of the dopamine. Getting illiterate. I hope someone understands? Or is this not gooning/ not possible?

Can someone help a girl out 🥹