What’s the point

I probably sound like every other person but genuinely there’s nothing good in my life. My family life sucks. I don’t like my friends and barely have any. My grades are trash. I’m ugly asf. Never had a relationship. Not involved with extracurriculars. Awkward personality. I tell myself that things will get better and I try and put myself out there but I get ghosted by people i’m trying to become friends with, rejected from clubs and extracurriculars, it’s like the universe doesn’t want anything good to happen to me. My parents fight everyday, my dads unemployed, my moms sick (she has an autoimmune condition and doctors think she might have cancer), and I have to deal with all of that plus commuting to college for 1 hr 30 mins one way every single day, just so I can go there and talk to no one. My mom yells at me, she’s never told me i’m pretty or smart, but says it to my other siblings all the time lol she even told me once "don’t be jealous cause your sister is prettier than you". My friends all went to the same university and all their old friends did too, so now they’re one big group and do everything together, while I just watch their location having fun without me. And honestly idek if i care tbh. My family went on vacation and my friends haven’t even checked up on me lol am i expecting too much? you can’t even message a quick hey how are you, what are you up to? I’ve been alone with my grandparents (who i can’t even speak the same language as) for 2 weeks just rotting in my house, missing my assignments and not studying just crying. I also have immense panic and paranoia i can’t sleep anymore. Idk what to do, it’s so sad to see all the bad things going on in the world to other people and knowing that they don’t deserve it, i wish i could switch places with them sometimes cause i’ve wasted all the opportunities given to me all i do is complain, im sure they would live my life a lot better than me.