In urgent need of relationship advice !

Hi! I (25F) am or recently was in a relationship with a man I love so much, let's call him T(27M). We were college colleagues in the same class. He was the popular guy, low key all the girls in our year had a crush on him and one of them being me. Time goes by, he flirts with me, we end up in a relationship, the most beautiful one and serious one I ever had. As time went by we went through some ups and downs but we fought through them and loved each other deeply, or at least I felt so. One huge event occurred: he repeated the academic year and I graduated last year, one year before him. For the context, he is a very traditional man: wants a stay at home wife, wants to be the sole provider and wants to have many children. I enjoyed the idea pretty much, we even agreed to build a farm together and so on. In short, everything we planned for the future we planned with each other in mind. Since I graduated I started my actual job and since then everything went to shit: we started to argue often and much nastier, I started complaining about his lack of effort (not helping me enough, not loving me enough, not respecting me) until the actual situation. We had fights, both angry af, we wouldn't reach out to one another for 1-2 days until I would come to him, apologies and trying to explain myself and him telling me that I'm at fault. T is the love of my life, no doubt, no matter the consequences or even how much I "hate" him, he is the man I want to end up with. After 2 years together, these past week we had 2 huge fights and the latter being the worst: he left me crying in my home, I didn't reach out for 4 days and today I cracked and I did. Despite trying to be strong for myself, I called him wanting to fix stuff, to tell him that I'm bad and I want to fix everything. He was stone cold, didn't care and told me that he doesn't see this going anymore because I had 2 years in which I could've opened up, I could've shown him that I really love him. At the end of this call I begged him in tears to give me another chance, to let me show him how much I love him. The point is, I don't want this relationship to end. I want to spend the rest of my life with him and only him. He is my person, he will always be and I feel that with every fiber of my being. He ended up telling me that he'll think about it but I think he's telling me that just to calm me down. What can I do? How can I talk to him in order to get through to him? We were inseparable...