i feel like i’m drowning alive

i don’t know how to describe this feeling always feel breathless like i can’t breath i feel dizzy im tired of panick attacks everyone always say i’m overacting and that i’m very fragile for having panick attacks and feeling scared i’m starting to feel really bad i hate myself i can’t stand how people think of me even when i pretend it did not hurt me . my chest feels heavy i feel like dying i can’t take this anymore this heavy breathing this physical and emotional discomfort even when i’m on my meds im tired i hate living now i don’t know what to do