Keeping My Head UP

You have given up on me years ago before we parted ways. I have reached the most lowest time of all. I have watched time after time you living a life where you have lied to me and made me look like I was making things up to hurt you. I have never said anything that was not true and yet I am the one homeless sleeping out of my car and trying to survive. I haven't eaten in weeks. I have been making sure my fur baby is taken care of and yet no one cares. I am so lost without words and sit here and shed tears for someone that lost hope and didn't have the strength to fight for us. You live your life as I dont exist and watch me fall and smack the ground. No matter what we go through I never gave up on. You say i used you and never loved you and that tears me to shreds. I loved you and tolerated so much with the things you have done to me over the years of being with you. As i sit here in this parking lot in glendale i am processing my next move and also hating myself for being with you realizing i was worth more than how you treated me and the way that you made me out to be can never undo the pain and mental abuse. I still love you but look at what this has done to me.