I feel disgusted with myself

I hate AI. Hate it. I’m not going into why, there are plenty of Lavender towne vids you can watch that’ll explain my exact feelings. However, I miss c.ai so so much. I want so badly to go back and use it, breaking my AI boycott. I still hate AI “art”, I still think it’s absolute GARBAGE. But I miss c.ai.

I just miss the instant response, the ability to lead the story where I want and watching the characters do things and make choices like they would in their respective game/film. Would I be a hypocrite if I used it for a night or two?