Starting to lose hope with medical professionals

I was hospitalized in late October (been hospitalized for mental health in 2022 as well). All they did was stabilize me, only refilled 3/5 of my medications for no reason disclosed, including one of my anxiety medications that weren’t filled.

Within the last two months, my anxiety has skyrocketed.

Within the last month or so, I’ve had a hard time leaving home, going to work, showering, cleaning, etc . Essentially functioning.

Post hospital visit, I was referred to an outpatient facility and the waiting list was 3-4 months long. I’ve been having such bad anxiety that I’ve been out of work for the last week. I had my first therapy appointment yesterday, and wanted to address this long battle I’ve been dealing with.

The therapist seemed to agree that I shouldn’t be working at the moment, and even told me she would help me with filing an FMLA claim.

Well, my employer also wanted a note in the case my FMLA claim is denied. The therapist refused to write me a note on the basis it was my first time there.

Now I’m scared my FMLA claim is also going to be denied, and I pretty much got told earlier if my claim is denied, I will be fired. Why would she support me in getting FMLA if she’s not taking me off of work?

I feel as if medical professionals are working against me and I’m scared I’ll lose my job, which will make my battle with my mental health even worse and I will probably end up hospitalized again. 😕