it hurts so much

im starting to feel physically nauseous because of how bad im getting. I dont know how i feel anymore, but its bad. Im so hopeless, i feel like throwing up most of the time when im feeling really bad.

i try to have hope in getting better but severe depression has no cure, you can only cope with it and feel better, and i dont think i have the ability to do that at all.

ps. i got banned from other channels which is also making me feel worse too, the disappointment of trying to post about how i feel and i couldn’t, so had to post here.