I, Daniel of the city Prachatice confess

In spite of the oaths I proclaimed before my church, I have continued to sin in increasing amounts. I have pleasured myself to pornography of both heterosexual and sodomic kinds. I have been using my unrestricted access to global content to touch myself to femboys and money generoualy provided to me by my family to purchase abhorrent items serving to satiate my fleshes' insatiable hunger for pleasure, which I was meant to deny. I too have crosdressed and fornicated outdoors beneath the cloak of night.

In my social life, I avoid and resent the people around me for their behavior, foul language and low aspirations. While I may present myself more honorably, I am guilty of hypocrisy, even if I am doing some things better, I am the same, if not worse sinnner than them. This is not how the master of mankind would have treated people and I am guilty of knowing it and acting so anyway.

What adds to my spite is that they treat me like a threat. I have been accused of planing a mass shooting, gossips were spread about me and in the end I have lost the connection between me and only person who has shown me true kindness and who I considered to be a true friend. And the truth is, that while I know too well that I have no right to their lives, I did think of doing it. I even thought of the opposite scenario, of being their defender amd earning some of the admiration which I still crave.

I feel like I had never gotten any respect from them. Like I was not their friend, but an entertainer. No conversation was ever taken seriously, no action taken to spend time with me, as if I was irrelevant or nuisance even. This cause around me, however has brought me something I was considering an alternative before. I have their fear instead of respect. And I take a liking to it.

To conclude. I believe I deserve no forgiveness. Not from Christ, not from people. I believe that I need his forgiveness to be saved frk eternal damnation. And I believe that he should make me suffer for my sin here, on this earth, so that I may learn to hate more, to the point of stopping, as it is righteous. I will walk alone in my quest. I need not to let my problems harms others. Nor let me.