I (29m) can’t stop thinking about dumping my load in someone else now that my wife wants to get pregnant

I feel kinda bad about this, but I know it’ll never happen so I guess there’s not much wrong with fantasizing. My wife and I are starting to talk about children, we’ve gotten less and less careful over the years and we recently made our first real “attempt”. We’re both taking supplements, trying to improve our diet and overall health, all the things.

Recently there is just something so fucking hot to me about the idea of fucking somebody else and pumping my load inside of another woman, especially while my wife is ovulating. Like this other mystery woman would be taking the cum that was meant for her. Maybe it’s my subconscious still being a little freaked out about the idea of being a father, and I don’t feel great about it like I said, but I just had to get that off my chest.