Im tired...

everyday is the same joke and I don't know what to do right now i just messed up dinner. and stressing out over bull crap m14 and acouple years left. before i turn to adult good. everything is going out of hand. and everyone wants to waste food. thats not the worst part...

I was abused in middle school that made me have ptsd for the rest of my damn life. everyday at night having those thoughts of being in the school everytime I would think about it I would get pissed about why can't I do that before. what the school did in grade 7..

on the first day of school it was normal but I was mentally tortured by teachers and bullied by kids. the staff even joked about my existence. and the beginning i had severe trauma about a girl who tried to sabotage me in gr6. so I was constantly talking about her and kinda insane, I used to be popular and known and back then my mental health was better until one of the students canceled me by making accusations about me including

saying I sexually assault a girl even though I didn't and back then I was gay. so that wasn't possible even if I was straight everyone knew I was kind hearted. once my reputation fell down the students would taunt me for 6 months until I had thoughts to end it I planned everyday. one day while my ex. left me because i was mentally exhausted. I had no one to talk to. so I planned my date on September. 2025 or something. I tried to call for help But nothing replied. and everyone knew even the kid that ruined my life. he taunt me saying that he wouldn't give a flying f*ck if I died or not. one day at june I had a mental breakdown and decided to self. yk and crying the teachers didn't give a flying damn. but the students tried to help me. they snitched and told one of the teachers my main gr7 teacher saw and smirked her face was smiling like she knew this happened shes the one who let the people bully me. she intrarrogated me by forcing me to tell her but I was trying to predict the future. she knew I wouldn't say a single word so she dragged me to the office with the principal they didn't look concern they looked like I escaped a damn mental hospital the way they're speaking made me panic and scared they called my parents. and convinced them that I was clinically insane and psychotic but those thoughts could've been resolved if she moved me to a different spot. I was sent away to the asylum for acouple of days

when i returned they looked disappointed. like I did something.