I’m in the cycle where everything will fall apart for one or two months and then the rest of the year will be fine and then my life crumbles again. This loop has been going on for years why?

I realize when I get closer to God in my life crumbles and then when I stop praying and stop getting close to sikhi, my life remains normal, but then when I get back into sikhi the same stuff happens again. This phase has been going on for multiple years. I realize that there are these 2 month periods everything will go wrong with my work my personal life and everything then the rest of the year will be fine and then back in a year the same thing happens again.