SKL AYOKO NAAA bakit ganito nanaman

so kasi BUONG last school year i had a crush on this boy na tawagin nating 🦖. ive never talked to him irl, pero ang ending nagconfess ako sa chat 🥲 because of what my friend did na sobrang halata na may gusto ako sa kanya, kaya ginawa ko na rin. first of all sama ng loob ko sa kanya kasi he rejected me and thats fine pero he said we could be friends daw? TAPOS INUNFOLLOW AKO??? though ik why kasi he keeps his circle small and hes very private 🥲

so nakamoveon na ko sa kanya after nun. i also ended up liking a friend from july to dec 🫩 na tagos bituka parin yung sakit ng ending kasi iba din gusto nya. so crushless era nanaman ako 🤷🏻‍♀️ that was until school fair started. kasi nagkikita nanaman kami ni 🦖 sa crowds 🫠

sa school fair kasi namin ginanap yung entrep namin so syempre lahat ng nonstem grade 12 nagbebenta. i went with my bff to stroll around, tapos nung padaan na kami ng booth nila 🦖 i was fully expecting him to ignore me like he always does. but this time he LITERALLY approached me sabi nya bumili daw kami sa entrep nila?? i responded casually na "wala na kaming pera e sorry" kahit kinabahan ako dun... knowing damn well i SHOULDNT FEEL KABA ANYMORE KASI NGA HINDI KO NA SYA GUSTO PERO BAKIT GANUN??

AFTER THAT HAPPENED INIISIP KO NANAMAN SYA AND I KEEP STARING AT HIM AGAIN 😭😭😭😭😭 pero to be honest, never sya magiging pangit sa paningin ko kasi sobrang pogi naman nya talaga at alam ng lahat yan 🥲💔 i need to be locked in a white room kapag naging crush ko ulit to 🥀 i worked so hard na makamove on sa kanya bakit parang back to zero ulit huhu