Scared of finishing the Knight and the Moth and a little rant about character art

So... I'm 80% and I can't believe how much I live this book. It's so beautiful, so lush, so dark and the romance just hits right, they are so sweet!

But I made the mistake, that while I preordered book two, I read the synopsis and now I'm spoilered and heartbroken ALREADY and now I'm scared to read on, because I know I will cry, hard. And the second book is only going to come out in autumn and... Bartholomew how am I supposed to live on heartbroken like that?

Naturally, I now bought One Dark Window and Two Twisted Crowns to drown my sorrow in (like I don't have a plathora of tbrs on my kindle and bookshelf already).

Now to the rant:

Why the freaking fuck is Sibyl so skinny in all art. It is described multiple times that she is strong? She's a mason, uses chisel and hammer. Maude comments on her strong physique, Rory can't wrap his huge hand around her upper arm...

Then I check out character art and in every fucking picture she has the tiniest, most fragile looking twiggly arms ever? Why????? Why can't we have an fmc that actually looks strong? Rant over.

I love the book, I'm happy, heartbroken and will be sitting on hot coaks waiting for the knave and the moon and I swear to the omens, if I don't get a happy ending, I'll... cry and won't be able to do anything about it... but fiercly!