MCA I want to settle down already

I know it’s hard to settle down now, especially in this economy. Kaya ko namang buhayin sarili ko, pero what if yung anak ko hindi ko kayang buhayin. Ang hirap din makakita ng lalaking single na consistent at masipag sa panahon ngayon. I used to date this guy, doctor sya, pero halos wala namang pangarap sa buhay, lalo na sakin 😂 very stagnant sya sa life. We broke up but for some reason I still want him to be the one I marry. I just realized it a few days ago 😭 baka crazy hormones ko lang to (currently on my period. Jusko hahahahaha sorry TMI) pero even so, thinking about his career and how still he is with no urgency in life, naisip ko pa rin na ayaw ko ma stuck sa isang guy like him. Baka ako pa tataguyod sakanya. So hindi sya practical. Di porket gusto ko pa rin sya, ay susugod ako. Ewan ko ba. Pero I really want to settle down with someone who’s the opposite of my ex. Although, mabait naman sya, maalaga, funny din, etc. pero aanhin ko naman yan kung wala naman syang life plans. Ma pera family nya since they own a business pero ayoko din isiping aasa nalang sa family nya.

Rant ako ng rant pero wala naman na kami. 😂😂 Feeling masyado e no. Hahahaha