I don’t know what to do

So i (23f)am an international student in USA i came here 2 years ago and i am a big introvert so i could not make any friends so i decided to try dating and after several months of meeting with people who didn’t align with me i met this guy(25m) there from the first day he acted really good or maybe i was just too lonely to see the truth and let things slide that i wouldn’t have before because I was so alone and lonely that i just wanted someone to be with me and i fall for him fast and hard and i got so attached. Within 2 weeks he put his hands on me called the cops on me when i tried to break up with him threaten me with cops telling my family and making a scene in front my apartment and i was really afraid because my family didn’t knew i was dating and I didn’t want to disappoint them by letting them know what i was doing here cause I came here to study not that stuff so i was afraid and he knew it and took advantage of it again and again every time we would fight and if i tried to break up or if i didn’t do anything he wants me to or listened to him or gave him any attitude in his language he would threaten me until i broke and apologized and took him back he even put his hands on me so many times he would threaten me to come with him whenever we fight he would drive to my place and threatened me to talk it out which was to listen to him and just let him do whatever he wants and do whatever he wants me to do he would drive far at 2/3 in the morning until I caved take my phone and call my family until I begged him not to he would cheat on me and if i asked or fought about it would do this until I let it go happened again and again and then came my birthday on October we were good for couple of weeks so i thought maybe he really is changing and trying to get better oh and btw every time he does this he would beg me to forgive promises me it won’t happen ever again promise to get help take meds and everything so back to the day before my birthday so we were good so i was happy so on that day he took me to a theme park where there were hunted houses and various rides so when he came to pick me up from the train station coz i live far and if he came to my house itd be extra time and traffic so i told him to come to that far station after his work so we can make it on time mind you i cleaned the whole house that day after my classes that day coz it was my turn that day then i showered wore my new dress that i bought specially for that day and did my makeup which i do rarely so its a big deal for me but i was trying my best to make it special and i didn’t eat anything whole day so i told him that when i am on the station i would grab a coffee and a donut coz i am really tired from all the work and getting up early to go to class i texted that and he was like ok so when i get to the station he was already waiting for like 5 minutes and i was hurrying too but i really was hungry so i grabbed a coffee and two donuts one for me and one for him and when i get to the car instead of saying anything about the looks or me grabbing him a donut coz he also didn’t eat anything he started flipping out on me for getting coffee while he waited i couldn’t even say anything he was yelling so bad and after sometime he stopped so i told him that i already told you that and i haven’t had anything since morning i was hungry and tired thats why and it was like two minutes so that’s how that evening started for me so after that he apologized and all that again so i let it go blaming it on work and long day then we went to the park where he knew i hated one of the ride cause it makes me nausea and very bad but he literally forced me to it while i was begging him that i don’t want to the whole wait time which was more than 30 minutes but we went anyway so after that we went to another one where we were talking i was talking with him while waiting and he wasn’t paying attention so I called his name couple of times to get his attention but he was looking at someone in the crowd while i try getting his attention so i slightly tapped on his cheek and he got so mad saying i slapped him and I was like no i was trying to get your attention so I tapped but he was adamant that i slapped him in front of people and I got mad saying you were busy looking at girls in the crowd while i have been calling you and talking to you but that aside he kept saying i slapped and i need to apologize so i said sorry but he wasn’t satisfied he stopped walking with me stopped holding my hand and gave me the silent treatment so I also just kept following without initiating anything and he got mad at that too and started yelling at me in front of all the people and stuff so i was like ok i am done i am not doing this anymore so he was like good im leaving you here too lets see how you go home ( it was in another state from the one i was staying and itd cost more than hundred bucks to get back and he knew i didnt had that kinda money) and i was angry to so i was like ok whatever and went to the restroom coz i was about to cry and he started calling me saying where am i and stuff fast forward we went to his car to get my beg coz i didnt want to go with him and when we got there he forced me to sit in his car and then started yelling and driving once we were out the parking he started hitting me saying how it feels to get slapped and all that and i was so angry that i gave the ring with what he proposed to me prior ( btw he proposed me to marry and against my better judgment i said yes and also not like I had a option to say no ) and he threw the ring at my face it hit my eye and i was already crying at that point coz he was slapping punching throwing my face against the window and he parked his car in a desolated parking by that time and I jumped out the car he caught me we fought basically i got beaten more and i was like i wanna break up i don’t want to stay saying that then he started saying hes gonna die coz he did that so he doesn’t wanna live and got on the nearby road so i had to make him stop again and again i had to forgive and stay while he promised he’d start therapy medication and all so then we went to his house i stayed there next day was my birthday nothing happened spend it without incident he didn’t do anything special just went out for dinner so the next day he took day off from work and came to my college with me telling me he wants to spend time together so ok we went there everything good n all then by the end when we were about to leave i saw someone texting him on spotify and i asked at first he denied then he opened and there he was talking with a girl he was saying she was insulting him so he was just saying stuff back coz she was someone from his ex friends girlfriend and all so we started fighting over that coz i was saying he was cheating which he was but it got big he forced me in his car again and it happened again but this time it got so bad i had busted lip and he kicked me after throwing me into the floor of a supermarkets parking lot it was late at noon so nobody was there and i don’t really remember how i got home how we solved and it stopped but it did and he dropped me off my place and i begged him to let me go im not happy but he didn’t listen to anything and blackmailed me again into giving-in and the next day he came forced me again into his car begged me to give one last chance he made appointment with therapy and his psychiatrist at that moment took me to cvs got bandages for me bandage my wrist that was twisted and got together again coz i had no option that was in October and after that i stopped asking questions kept quiet just to save myself by that time i told my sister about him that i was dating but nothing else and she was supportive coz she didn’t knew everything but i told her i dont wanna stay here i wnna go to Portugal to her and i am thinking of making a complaint to the cops against him coz i dont like him and he cheats i think and he threatened if i try to break up i didnt tell her everything coz even after everything i still loved him and hoped he’d change and my sister encouraged me saying its all maybe a misunderstanding and coz the way i told her it did sound like that and told me to see what happens not to take a rash decision in the moment of anger so I stayed he didn’t hit me again and then we got married in a town hall coz i said when we first talking that i dont do casual i am looking for serious relationship that would lead to marriage so when he told me to that we are going to i tried everything to get more time coz at that time i was thinking of leaving the country once my semester was up but i couldn’t he still forced me to get married and i afraid scared my dad knowing about it complied quietly and we got married the day before thanksgiving and on thanksgiving when he was dropping me off to my place we fought again in the car he was getting mad because of the traffic and took it out on me tried to leave me in a dangerous area where there’s people who do drugs and stuff but i refused to get out of car so i was safe and he also said he regretted marrying me and pulled out divorce on the phone the very next day when he married me so that was one but i didn’t got hit for two months we fought but i stayed quiet so it never got big or i just apologized or did whatever to not let it get bad so it didn’t until January 12 when i was at his place we were watching the football game basically him and i was just being with him when he started playing with me trying to put his face down there in a playful way and i was pushing him off and knocked his glasses off and he snapped and started hitting me his grandparents were right outside and they heard my cry and came asked me and he said i hit him first to them ( oh btw he has multiple cases against him basically every ex put cases against him has been on probation since 18 and hes 25 now and there was a hearing for his probation violation on January too and hes didn’t tell me everything until i was deep in with him and even by knowing i couldn’t do anything) so that happened and his grandparents were like you shouldn’t do that and they were asking if i was ok and then left the room and he was telling me to get out of his house so i did in the middle of the night at 11.30 i got out there i didn’t had money on my card but i had cash so in that January cold i walked for 40 minutes to go to my bank to put money in and that place in not a good area so people were asking if i want to cone with them and all that and when i went to the bank the bank atm was not taking deposits and i was so devastated at that moment and then he came there trying to take me back saying his grandma sent him otherwise he wouldn’t come so again he forced me in his car and we went back to his place and in the car i thought he would apologize and i would forget it but no he asked me to apologize to his grandparents i was flabbergasted by what he said and i was refusing and he started hitting me in the car until I was like ok i will apologize to them but i was angry and i went inside and to his grandparents room and told them how he threatened me how he beats me how he forced me to marry him i even showed the photo of my busted lips and some of his threatening texts he was furious his grandfather had to stop him from coming to me so he threw all my clothes outside his room and told me to take everything and go so his grandmother packed everything in begs for me and booked me an uber coz he cancelled the one he booked and then i came home and when i came home he called and begged me to stay on call with him and apologized and that water work again and i had no choice but to listen the next day he kept me on call whole day while he worked and when he got off work he started fighting with me again coz i wasn’t talking with him and went out of the state to another and stayed in there that night and where he stayed there was no hotel or anything and lied to me about being with a friend and sent me a old picture with his friend which he snet me before too that was it then on Tuesday came to to my place forced me in the car and again until i was ready to give him another chance he promised in person therapy his grandparents told him to get counseling everything which he still hasn’t done anything we went back we fought couple more times since then until today when i was home i was stressed and really down for two days so after i got home he told me to call him when we were already on call he was home and i was in the train coming to my place he suddenly said to call after i get home so i instantly understood he was getting call from someone else so he wanted me to hang up coz if he did then he wouldn’t have the mean to say that i hung up so i did hang up but he told me to call after i get home but i didn’t call instead i went to shower and that’s when all hell fall he called many times texted when I came out i already knew it was gonna happen he started yelling i showed i was showering but he wouldn’t listen kept yelling and saying i was making excuses and started sulking so I didn’t say anything to make him feel better and then my family called so i showed him ss and told him id call back and hung up so i was talking with my family and after like 20 min he started calling so i had to cut it short and call him so he got mad at that too that i was talking with my family so he started fighting with me again and he ripped all my clothes that was at his place i do crochet so there was a dress that was 90% done he ripped that the gifts i gave him for Christmas and his birthday everything called me names nothing new but called me ugly fat made fun of my insecurities about my skin said he hates me and i asked if he hates me so much then why don’t he divorce me he said he would divorce me after i die that he wants to break me from inside then my bones choke me till i die and many terrible things (and i know he did this today so he doesn’t have to take me out tomorrow on valentine and can take whoever he wants he does this every time he wants to meet someone else)after that again asked me to not block him and hes not divorcing me he understand i need time and hes not gonna text me or call me but i shouldn’t block him or hide my location and he is not divorcing me and i had to agree so he would not disturb me so here am i now its 3 in the morning and i dont know what do my sister is sleeping so i cant even call her i dont know i feel like dying i know this is all my fault I got myself into this but i only wanted love like i do and loyalty and now im into this mess i dont want my dad to find out hed be disappointed he might even have a stroke he would literally die if he finds out but i can’t take it anymore i feel so trapped and scared and tired