I’m so devastated right now (vent)

I don’t know if this post is gonna be allowed, but I’m really upset right now. I’ve been taking valacyclovir for a bit now but I can’t get a refill on it and it’s been a few days. Now it’s the day before Valentine’s Day, and I just woke up at 1am with a strange red mark on my lip, no tingling or itching. So, if this is a cold sore, I have to worry about spreading it and be super embarrassed instead of actually enjoying the day with my boyfriend which I’ve been looking forward to all week. Now, if this is a cold sore, i have to do all the extra things the whole time. I have to be careful, wash my hands constantly, I can’t kiss him, can’t touch his or my face, have to disinfect all the things in my room that could possibly have it, etc etc. I just know it’s gonna be on my mind the whole time, it always is. And I always get them right before he comes over. I have to pretend that it doesn’t bother me or else everyone gets upset and I don’t want to ruin the day for everyone but it’s honestly really getting to me, being my age with hsv1 is so difficult. I can’t get my license yet because of a medical condition so I rely on my parents (one of them is always way too high to do anything, the other one is always working) but they can never help me out. I’ve been nagging them for days about it and it’s always “yeah we’ll do it after school” but they never do. I’m really hoping this isn’t a cold sore, I’m on my last day of my period so I know that changing hormones can cause them to flare up. I’m just so upset right now. I know this seems minor to a lot of people, but being my age with hsv1 is very embarrassing. I know my relationship is not likely to be long term and I don’t want to accidentally leave this random teenage boy with a lifelong condition that really sucks to have, especially if it doesn’t work out long term. Sorry for the long post, but thank you for reading.