All my music is gone

I went thru a bad break up and i deleted everything and even deleted from recently deleted man fuck i just wanna cry right now dawg i had such good songs i put my blood swear and tears into those songs literally fuck dawg this stupid bich got me going insane i can’t believe i deleted all my music man i feel like i lost a part of my self 😢😢💔💔💔💔💔 idk what to do anymore