Im exhausted and sick and tired of existence

im just tired of life. of getting up in the morning and dealing with this shit day in, day out. my existence is miserable, exhaustive, and difficult and im just over it. everything that could go wrong does, in the worst way possible and nothing ever works out right. my life and the world is so utterly fucked that I have nothing to try and be optimistic about. im hurting so bad mentally, emotionally, physically and I just dont to anymore. I want to no longer feel or experience anything at all. im too afraid to die unfortunately, but I so badly just wish I could cease existing. im just not cut out for life. im just utterly over and done with drudging myself through daily punishment and misery for absolutely nothing. im just done. I want to just stop being here