feel miserable nonstop & feel stuck....

im tired of feeling miserable & unhappy, need better friends, need advice...

As someone who feels stuck recently, I feel like we lose a lot of friends between finding ourself & transitioning for jobs or school, we leave our local town but then feel like we lost a core friend group after looking/pursuing for life's next chapter, whether its not reconnecting or getting back in touch with old friends or trying to find new ones but then not feeling like you connect well with some, it feels hard its a lot of effort like other things but its harder when half of your friends are married or busy with their life, & then there are weekends where you wish you had more active friendships or talk to someone who really cares about you... someone you can call in the middle of night or feel safe talking to. im also very shy & dont feel like my personality is very active compared to others. ;-; it sucks because it also affects my life like i wont ever be happy... or successful. I also dont drive currently which is hard.

We all have periods where a friend door closes or opens, we wish we could reconnect or go down a path differently or regret not being closer or help our friends or think of them more & be active or more empathic supportive or be there for them. its hard when you feel so alone or feel left behind. Currently I dont have enough money to support myself, or to help me through the phase im currently in, I want to apply or travel places but i feel like the world is struggling & we dont have a good plan for the way the world is. Id love to find new hobbies but its hard to feel like Im just losing myself in the process of everything.

How do you find time to balance friendships or have hobbies & a good life? As i get older i'm finding it hard to keep up with my friends. Life can be really hard sometimes to balance ones own life with others or tell how meaningful the friendship is or if it leads to new experiences. it feels desperate at times contact wise just to get out more. I don’t have a lot of friends who go out or feel very active at gatherings, ie clubs or to any events or parties, and wish I did, my friend circle is small with one of my friends ...who i thought was cool now ghosting me for getting married. I try to be active some days, and 2 of my friends are working a lot, 1 of them moved out of town farther away from me so I rarely see them, it’s hard to live life alone while not connecting or finding a genuine connection. I feel like friendships are hard, same with settling down, some people have brunches or have better connections that maybe lead to them having a decent job or life, with less stressful hours & can balance their own independence better then others. I have a friend who i talk to via text but i dont feel like I have a person who can call me 24/7 if im sad... or anyone who "REALLY" can be here for me if i had a crisis. One time me and a friend went for dinner but i feel like im the only one who doesn't have his life sorted out well.. compared to them. its hard to feel vulnerable with friends or open up.

In summary idk if life without a lot of friends can hinder ones life or feeling alone is part of life's struggle, or having a smaller friend group is better, while i would like to talk to more people or have connections that feel meaningful its hard to not feel unhappy while the world is changing. what advice do people have for this? is there a way to not feel alone going through this or finding more friends?