Just life update

So yesterday while everyone else was getting gifts and princess treatment I got beaten to death by my current bf. He didn't celebrated any day for me just grabbed a rose on the first day after me asking for it. Yesterday I expected to get atleast a flower bouquet himself but he did nothing while I got him sone stuffs that he needed in his daily use.

After seeing he felt shameful or whatever he got me waffles that were not even the brand and flavours that I like and even after knowing eachother for 2 yrs plus he has an excuse he didn't remember,great. But now he wants me to be thankful for doing this favour in return to what he did to my feelings and when I wasn't ready I was beaten like a dog with constant slaps and plucking my hair from my scalp.

He has beaten me constantly for 2-3 hrs my face is swollen and is in pain and I can't do anything he is a physopath. I just want to suicide and leave this pain behind it's my 4th attempt with the worst coming up every time and in his case he is already going to be my fiancee soon.