I'm not ok

I'm not OK.

Even when I'm smiling, know that I'm not ok.

Even if I do my work and pay my bills, know that I'm not OK.

When I'm late or don't show up, know that I'm not OK.

When I make plans for the future, or for today, know that I'm not OK

When you don't hear from me, for days or weeks, know that I'm not OK.

When I call or text to see how you're doing, know that I'm not OK.

When I sit alone at home and no one checks in for days, know that I'm not OK.

When playing with my dog, and having fun, know that I'm not OK.

When I'm with friends, talking and laughing, know that I'm not OK.

When I talk about places I went to or things I did, know I'm not OK.

When I wake up in the morning until I go to sleep at night, I'm not OK.