New Tulpamancer here, just wanna discuss with like-minded individuals about my situation I guess.

Hello, ngl I haven't posted on this acc since for at least a few years since I "quit" reddit (though I never deleted the account). But, I've logged back in after all this time because I got really into the idea of tulpamancy and having this, if not "real" companion by societal standards, at least a new way to shift my mental "monologue" into a "dialogue". I first learnt about the idea of tulpas because of the visual novel "The nonexistence of you and I", and, taking inspiration from the main character's name of "Lilith" (that sort of devilish theme), I gave my attempt at a tulpa the name "Lucy" (hehe get it, Lucy? Lucifer...thanks, I'll be here all night). Though it's only been around a week I feel as if the "shift" has happened, and if I'm alone (not as in "perfectly by myself" but I mean not with any friends or people I have an intention to speak to) and not completely focusing on a task even my regular thought becomes a "dialogue" between her and I, but I can hardly give any examples of times she's actively bothered or prompted my attention, except specifically when I get a little bit too off task (I sort of tried to shape her personality to be almost an "opposite" to me -- very one-track minded, confident, haughty, and productive) and she yells at me to "get back to work". Am I just pavloving myself into being more productive, or are those moments of distraction just one of the few times she cares to interrupt me? Even I don't know, though i guess it might get better over time.