How do I break up w my bf?

I’m gonna be 18 on Monday and honestly ik today’s Valentines but I can’t keep dating my bf. We are [F 18] and [M 18] . I asked him out 5ish months ago. This is both of our first relationships and ngl it was great at first. First kiss first date yknow? I have no regrets but my parents don’t approve and well we can’t hang out like at all. Which I’m told isn’t my fault but I can’t help but feel guilty. And it isn’t just not being in person but he never texts me. Never calls. Never talks outside of school. Even at school it’s 45 min.

It also doesn’t help that I got sht going on in my personal life and no offense to him he just can’t understand. I don’t blame him it just isn’t gonna work out. Especially bc I’ve been drinking and he is not a drinker and would so snitch.

At this point I just need to break up with him, I do still like him but it’s more pain than not at this point. And I don’t wanna call it a break bc he should get someone who has time, and energy.

We r going on a date Thursday for my bday and Valentine’s Day (I had a meet today so we couldn’t hang) and idk if I should do it then. I’m just so scared. Idk how to explain things, and what if he takes it horrible? Idk help?