Crazy is as crazy did

What a roller coaster life has been. And now it’s one of my favorite holidays and all I’ve had today is grief grief because I care too much grief because others cared too little. Grief because loved ones aren’t here. Grief because I feel like I have no outlet no sounding board grief because I I’m sad not just today but most days and sadness used to not be so big when I had someone to remind me of the happy around me. That someone ever had to be a relationship in the romantic sense it could’ve been friendship. But neither of those things seem to be something I have today and I think it’s the hardest part in my tragedy to not have that friendship today